Tuesday, October 14, 2014
WHAT IS TRUE BEAUTY?
Hello all, it's been quite some time and much has happened since I last wrote, I will fill you in eventually but today I want to write about true beauty and what we as human beings perceive true beauty to be.
Well, when asked this question many of us think of the outward appearance of a person and yes this may be true to some extent, but true beauty is within. I have been told numerous times that I am beautiful but when I look in the mirror I don't see it, I don't see the beauty others see what I see are scares, bruises and so much pain. I see someone that is dying pretending she's alive and apparently I am really good at it because no one else sees what I see in that mirror, you see they see the outward appearance they don't see or maybe they just don't care to see what is really going on inside.
You see my husband left me 6 months ago, for another woman (hear him tell it he would say no, but the reality of it is he did) he is presently living with his girlfriend not too far from where we lived. Now if it was that he only left with another woman I don't think it would have been that bad but it's the way he crushed myself esteem that made it worse. So when all this happened I held on to God with all my might I didn't want to let go but little by little I became angry and bitter and I channeled all my anger and bitterness toward God I asked him how could he let something like this happen? He knew all the pain and suffering I had to endure from my past relationships, I thought all the pain was done I was supposed to live happily ever after ......not lol.
So what did I do you say I turned to social media I joined each one I could, Match.com, Badoo, Zooks, Twitter, and Facebook. Now FB I shutdown because it was too much drama (that's another blog for another time) the others well I kept them going for a while...so here it goes folks Match.com 560 men (after a week) want to meet me, Badoo 90 men (after two days) want to meet me, and Zooks 580 men (after less than a week) want to meet me, ooo and it gets better on Badoo I wound up with rewards after one day Hottest pics of the week, and most sought after person in less than 2 days. I was so souped really to think that I was considered beautiful (remember myself esteem is in the gutter) but these men all they saw was my outward beauty, very few saw what was happening on the inside. Last night I was speaking with a friend and he said to me that my pictures are beautiful but what he really saw was the pain in my eyes, he said "I see so much pain there and I know you have suffered much in your life"........Wow he could really see the scares unbelievable, I guess I can't hide from everyone lol, but you know something I believe God used him to speak to me, to let me know that I wasn't fooling Him (God). See God knows my pain, he knows what I am going through on the inside - (Psalms 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb) so how can I hide from my Creator.
Today is my birthday and I woke up very emotional, lonely and empty go figure with all these men after me you would think I would feel great but no I don't you know why.....because the one that truly matters, the one that knit me in my mothers womb is the one that I should have been seeking His approval, He wants to tell me how beautiful I truly am, He sees my inward beauty the outside doesn't matter to Him. He has been yelling my name and I have been ignoring Him until today, when I finally heard His voice calling out to me. I have been taking it out on the wrong person, I have been seeking superficial gratification but when it's all said and done I am still left feeling scared, bruised, and with much pain, but you know something with every scar, bruise and pain there is a story and that story is meant to strengthen not weaken and it's with each bruise each scar and every pain that we become more and more beautiful why because we allow God our Creator to restore, rebuild, and renew us from the inside out.
So my friends when you see someone with outward beauty look a little deeper and see the true beauty that lies within. I finally learned that today.
May the Lord bless you and comfort you always.
Well, when asked this question many of us think of the outward appearance of a person and yes this may be true to some extent, but true beauty is within. I have been told numerous times that I am beautiful but when I look in the mirror I don't see it, I don't see the beauty others see what I see are scares, bruises and so much pain. I see someone that is dying pretending she's alive and apparently I am really good at it because no one else sees what I see in that mirror, you see they see the outward appearance they don't see or maybe they just don't care to see what is really going on inside.
You see my husband left me 6 months ago, for another woman (hear him tell it he would say no, but the reality of it is he did) he is presently living with his girlfriend not too far from where we lived. Now if it was that he only left with another woman I don't think it would have been that bad but it's the way he crushed myself esteem that made it worse. So when all this happened I held on to God with all my might I didn't want to let go but little by little I became angry and bitter and I channeled all my anger and bitterness toward God I asked him how could he let something like this happen? He knew all the pain and suffering I had to endure from my past relationships, I thought all the pain was done I was supposed to live happily ever after ......not lol.
So what did I do you say I turned to social media I joined each one I could, Match.com, Badoo, Zooks, Twitter, and Facebook. Now FB I shutdown because it was too much drama (that's another blog for another time) the others well I kept them going for a while...so here it goes folks Match.com 560 men (after a week) want to meet me, Badoo 90 men (after two days) want to meet me, and Zooks 580 men (after less than a week) want to meet me, ooo and it gets better on Badoo I wound up with rewards after one day Hottest pics of the week, and most sought after person in less than 2 days. I was so souped really to think that I was considered beautiful (remember myself esteem is in the gutter) but these men all they saw was my outward beauty, very few saw what was happening on the inside. Last night I was speaking with a friend and he said to me that my pictures are beautiful but what he really saw was the pain in my eyes, he said "I see so much pain there and I know you have suffered much in your life"........Wow he could really see the scares unbelievable, I guess I can't hide from everyone lol, but you know something I believe God used him to speak to me, to let me know that I wasn't fooling Him (God). See God knows my pain, he knows what I am going through on the inside - (Psalms 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb) so how can I hide from my Creator.
Today is my birthday and I woke up very emotional, lonely and empty go figure with all these men after me you would think I would feel great but no I don't you know why.....because the one that truly matters, the one that knit me in my mothers womb is the one that I should have been seeking His approval, He wants to tell me how beautiful I truly am, He sees my inward beauty the outside doesn't matter to Him. He has been yelling my name and I have been ignoring Him until today, when I finally heard His voice calling out to me. I have been taking it out on the wrong person, I have been seeking superficial gratification but when it's all said and done I am still left feeling scared, bruised, and with much pain, but you know something with every scar, bruise and pain there is a story and that story is meant to strengthen not weaken and it's with each bruise each scar and every pain that we become more and more beautiful why because we allow God our Creator to restore, rebuild, and renew us from the inside out.
So my friends when you see someone with outward beauty look a little deeper and see the true beauty that lies within. I finally learned that today.
May the Lord bless you and comfort you always.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
IT'S TIME
So, Hello fellow bloggers, long time no write......lol I crack me up.
Well, the day finally arrived, God willing we leave in about 45min to the airport. We are waiting for our daughter and son-in-law to come pick us up. OOOOO.....silly me, you are probably wondering why I am so excited......... I realize you don't know.........we are going to Disney with our grandson Victor this is his birthday present from us. We had plan this for a year already and it almost didn't happen but God in all His awesomeness made a way......and so here we are.
Now the only other thing in the way is this wonderful hurricane heading our way.......LOL Hurricane Irene they call it........But I am believing that God is going to get us there safely. He never ceases to amaze me when I heard of this Hurricane I prayed and asked God please don't let it hit Florida and when I read about it I read that the hurricane is going to skip Florida........LOL Wow.....but you know what I really pray this hurricane just disappears into the ocean. It is so sad to see the aftermath.
I woke up with a song in my head and it's called Little Flower written and sung by Pastor Sam Cintron and the only part that keeps repeating in my head is "You found this little flower in this great big Forest" so I look out my window and there among the jungle that is in my backyard (LOL) are two little flowers..........and they are just so bright they look white but when I went outside to see them (I had to) they are a pale pink but at that moment I stopped and thought about that verse to the song the same way I spotted that flower amongst the jungle God spotted us amongst our jungle (drug addiction, fornication, deception, low self esteem, etc.....I'm sure you get the point). In all our ugliness God sees beauty.........Wow
Well just wanted to share with you this morning, and remind you that God sees you as a beautiful little fragile flower.
Have a blessed day.
Well, the day finally arrived, God willing we leave in about 45min to the airport. We are waiting for our daughter and son-in-law to come pick us up. OOOOO.....silly me, you are probably wondering why I am so excited......... I realize you don't know.........we are going to Disney with our grandson Victor this is his birthday present from us. We had plan this for a year already and it almost didn't happen but God in all His awesomeness made a way......and so here we are.
Now the only other thing in the way is this wonderful hurricane heading our way.......LOL Hurricane Irene they call it........But I am believing that God is going to get us there safely. He never ceases to amaze me when I heard of this Hurricane I prayed and asked God please don't let it hit Florida and when I read about it I read that the hurricane is going to skip Florida........LOL Wow.....but you know what I really pray this hurricane just disappears into the ocean. It is so sad to see the aftermath.
I woke up with a song in my head and it's called Little Flower written and sung by Pastor Sam Cintron and the only part that keeps repeating in my head is "You found this little flower in this great big Forest" so I look out my window and there among the jungle that is in my backyard (LOL) are two little flowers..........and they are just so bright they look white but when I went outside to see them (I had to) they are a pale pink but at that moment I stopped and thought about that verse to the song the same way I spotted that flower amongst the jungle God spotted us amongst our jungle (drug addiction, fornication, deception, low self esteem, etc.....I'm sure you get the point). In all our ugliness God sees beauty.........Wow
Well just wanted to share with you this morning, and remind you that God sees you as a beautiful little fragile flower.
Have a blessed day.
Monday, May 2, 2011
IT'S CHRIST FOR ME
Putting God First is all I want to do
On this very day I will choose
Christ who paid the Price
So I can live my Life
He shed His Blood for you and me
On the Cross at Calvary
Who is this man many have asked
That gave His life with an unselfish act
They beat Him, Spat at Him and tortured Him that day
But He knew there was a debt that needed to be paid
So He gave His Life to show His Love
To a people that continue to give up
We look for Him when times are rough
We cry out to Him when we need His touch
We even remember the price He paid
And quickly forget Him once we have our way
No
Not I
Because on this day
IT'S JESUS CHRIST ALL THE WAY
AMEN!!!!
Written by:
Michele Cansobre
Date:
4/26/11
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
My Aunt
Wow I was reading my posts and I didn't realize I didn't give you all the Praise Report on my Aunt. My Aunt did pass a way I call it a Praise Report because although she is truly missed she is in heaven just worshipping our Heavenly Father. You see I didn't know a whole lot about my aunt Chica but when I went to PR I found out she just loved to worship God WOW!!! she would just sing praises to Him and she truly lived Proverbs 31. My aunt was an amazing Godly woman she loved with her whole heart and she gave of herself completely. I was so blessed when I heard such beautiful testimonies. You know I was looking for a physical healing the ones we see with our eyes but God did heal her she did touch the hem of His garment because now my Aunt is not suffering anymore, she has no pain and she can dance and sing to God every day for all eternity. Titi Chica will truly be missed and I thank God for allowing me to have the chance of meeting her and be blessed by her life testimony. God Bless
Abundant Blessings
Good morning! You know how when you read or hear something you just don't get it and then one day you read or hear it again and it speaks volumes, well that is what happened to me today....Praise God, He is good and He's always on time. When God Blesses he Blesses ABUNDANTLY!!!!! it's not small its so much that you are going to be able to share that Blessing with others because it's so much....... Luke 5:4-7 -When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, "Put out into deep water and let down the nets for a catch." Simon answered "Master, we've worked hard all night and haven't caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets." When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink. After reading this scripture I just broke down because here God is letting us know if we want a blessing 1 we have to go deep it's not going to be right there on the surface, it's going to be in deep waters (Prayer & reading the word of God). 2 we need to be obedient to whatever God tells us, even if we don't see it, even if we don't understand it and even if we had tried it that way already with no results when God says do it we need to just do it no questions asked. 3 We need to trust and believe God, have faith. Then the blessing will come and it will be so much the people around you are going to be blessed there isn't anything big enough that is going to be able to take the weight of the blessing because it will be in abundance. I know what I have been waiting for and I know that their have been times I doubted that the blessing was ever going to get here but today my faith has been restored. I will cast my net wherever God tells me because I know He is preparing me to receive my blessing......... How about you my dear friend are you ready to listen to God and cast your net? May you have a wonderfully blessed day. Love ya
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
To the Backslider,
When you accept Jesus as your Savior you have also accepted Him as your Lord you cannot do one without the other. Jesus has manifested Himself into your whole being and you have given Him complete control. I am not saying that once you say “Jesus I want you to come into my life and I accept you as my Lord and Savior” that everything is going to be perfect, I am saying however, that there will be change, you will be transformed into a new creation, 2Corinthians 5:17 – therefore if anyone is in Christ the new creation has come: the old has gone, the new is here. That is why when you walk away from God you still have this uncomfortable feeling that something is off, it is the Spirit which lives in you, which you had said YES and AMEN to. Once Jesus comes in He doesn’t leave willingly, we throw Him out, we pack His bags and shut the door, but the beauty of it all is he doesn’t go far away, He sits at the door knocking and waits for us to open it again Revelations 3:20 – Behold, I stand at the door and knock: If any man hears my voice and open the door, I will come in to him and will sup with him and he with me. I remember one time my daughter Maria was about 2 or 3 yrs old and she said I am leaving so I opened up the door and said “bye” and shut the door behind her. She didn’t move she stood right at that door with tears streaming down her face, just waiting to see if I would open up the door for her to come in. I believe in the same way Jesus is just waiting at the door with tears in His eyes knocking and wondering if we are ever going to open the door and let Him in once more.
Well my question to you is this:
Is your life any better now without Jesus?
If your answer is yes remember what the word of God tells us in John 14-6 - Jesus answered, "I Am the way and the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me" and Matthew 7:13-14 - Enter through the narrow gate for wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it, but small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to Life,and only a few find it. Remember my dear friends the devil is a liar (John 8:44, Revelations 12:9, 2Corinthians 11:14) all he wants to do is destroy (Revelations 13) he paints a pretty picture so you could believe your life is better without Jesus, however it's not too late you could still open the door and let Him in.
If your answer is NO open the door, He is right there on the other side just waiting for you.
I pray that this message blesses you as it did me.
Love you and God Bless You always
When you accept Jesus as your Savior you have also accepted Him as your Lord you cannot do one without the other. Jesus has manifested Himself into your whole being and you have given Him complete control. I am not saying that once you say “Jesus I want you to come into my life and I accept you as my Lord and Savior” that everything is going to be perfect, I am saying however, that there will be change, you will be transformed into a new creation, 2Corinthians 5:17 – therefore if anyone is in Christ the new creation has come: the old has gone, the new is here. That is why when you walk away from God you still have this uncomfortable feeling that something is off, it is the Spirit which lives in you, which you had said YES and AMEN to. Once Jesus comes in He doesn’t leave willingly, we throw Him out, we pack His bags and shut the door, but the beauty of it all is he doesn’t go far away, He sits at the door knocking and waits for us to open it again Revelations 3:20 – Behold, I stand at the door and knock: If any man hears my voice and open the door, I will come in to him and will sup with him and he with me. I remember one time my daughter Maria was about 2 or 3 yrs old and she said I am leaving so I opened up the door and said “bye” and shut the door behind her. She didn’t move she stood right at that door with tears streaming down her face, just waiting to see if I would open up the door for her to come in. I believe in the same way Jesus is just waiting at the door with tears in His eyes knocking and wondering if we are ever going to open the door and let Him in once more.
Well my question to you is this:
Is your life any better now without Jesus?
If your answer is yes remember what the word of God tells us in John 14-6 - Jesus answered, "I Am the way and the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me" and Matthew 7:13-14 - Enter through the narrow gate for wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it, but small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to Life,and only a few find it. Remember my dear friends the devil is a liar (John 8:44, Revelations 12:9, 2Corinthians 11:14) all he wants to do is destroy (Revelations 13) he paints a pretty picture so you could believe your life is better without Jesus, however it's not too late you could still open the door and let Him in.
If your answer is NO open the door, He is right there on the other side just waiting for you.
I pray that this message blesses you as it did me.
Love you and God Bless You always
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