Friday, May 20, 2016

How Much Do You Love Your Body???

Friday...awesome, let's prepare for the weekend😂
I like to go to a certain restaurant very often, unfortunately I will only be going once a week, why you ask....I finally made it to the gym, I have been going everyday and I totally love it. I couldn't go today because I was truly exhausted but I will be there tomorrow. You see someone inspired me without realizing it. Someone I met a few weeks ago said something to me that resonated with me....he said he treats his body right, he works out and I am sure he eats right and it got me body is God's temple and the way I have been treating it is horrible so I am basically treating God as if He is unimportant, so because I love God so much I need to treat this temple with much love and respect. So as much as I love to frequent at my spot I have to tone it down. God's temple is very important to me and in the same token, I actually miss the way I feel when I work out. All my frustrations, disappointments, sadness, negative feelings etc.. are left at every machine. I walk out with pure happiness, and optimism.

So this week I went to my spot and had a very interesting conversation with a very bright young man. You see we both are from two different faiths and although we don't agree on everything we were able to have an amazing conversation about God and the difference in out beliefs, we didn't argue about who's faith is the right one and we didn't say either one of our faiths were the right one and it felt great. He was actually interested in my belief as was I equally interested in his. That just goes to show you that we could live harmoniously, without trying to force people to think, act and believe as you do.
Everybody is different, we as Christians are called to love each other, treat each other with respect, and encourage each other.

Well, this weekend will be a relaxing one...chores, gym and maybe I will take myself out to the movies. So far I have been one pretty good lol

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

A Little Bit of Everything

Today I want to share something amazing with you.
You know that saying "You are who you walk with" well, you are not who you walk with, I have learned that about myself. I know and frequent with many different people, different beliefs, different lifestyles and that hasn't changed me one bit. I used to believe that saying but when I look back at my life I didn't become any of the people I hung out with... Why, well because I am unique in all my ways and so are you. 
I genuinely love people, everyone has a story and each story, to me, is amazing, that is why I tend to socialize with everyone. LOL "The Social Butterfly" they call me LOL
So my point is love people and don't let anyone classify you.

On a different note not sure if I mentioned I took off my wedding ring only because if anyone is really interested in me, (if he is a respectable man) he will not approach me.
Needless to say, I am still single. I have been concentrating on God, work, and now working out. I have met some interesting gentlemen, but they have just remained friends or just disappeared lol lol. I Don't get it, meeting people in Florida is hard. I have noticed guys my age range are looking for the barbie doll. Personality doesn't hold water here...haha if your cute, thin your in, then, you get the guys that could be my sons they are the ones that are interested. REALLY????? URGH!!! So basically I am in a no win situation lol lol.
I have prayed for that "ONE" the man that could make me smile without saying a word, the man that can look at me and know exactly what I am thinking, romantic, compassionate, loving, affectionate, honest, loyal, is excited about joining me on this new adventure. The man that when I walk into the room his heart just skips a beat, that to him I am beautiful and amazing, the man that would take me as I am with all my flaws and is ready to receive all this love I have to offer. A man that has a true relationship with God, a man of courage and integrity, Where is he...come forward.... Or does he not exist... Is this just a fantasy.

Hummmmm sad thing is I refuse to lower my standards... some say that is why I'm still single lol lol.
But me I say that is okay because I know he is out there somewhere, maybe I have already met him and don't even know it yet, which ever is the case. I will be patient and wait. God's timing is always perfect.
Have an amazing day.

Sunday, March 27, 2016


Where do I begin my weekend was amazing, (well, I can't tell a lie.....I was a little lonely today..but other than that I am good). Well, it started Thursday, I reconnected with three old friends,  it was nice hearing from them.
Anyway enough about that, Friday I went to the Holy Land Experience in Orlando, I have been there several times but this time it was different. I was expecting a Wow factor but God kept it simple I remember coming back disappointed because I was expecting a fireworks kind of day like a crazy Holy Ghost moment and yet what I got was a reflecting moment, peaceful, quiet, stillness, it kind of reminded me of Elijah when he stood on the mountain waiting for the Lord to pass and he expected to see Him in the powerful wind, then the earthquake, then the fire but instead He came in the stillness because Elijah heard the gentle whisper (1 Kings 19:11-12 - The Lord said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by." The a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, the the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper). That is how it happened for me I sat in the prayer garden and there was just a stillness and I wept, I knew God was there with me I just knew it. There was peace, tranquility and just a gentle breeze that just caressed me. I went home the same day and then Saturday I went to the Renaissance Festival, had a blast there. Then today I went to church. Let me explain something I was visiting this church and was trying to get plugged in but I would give my number and no one called months passed and I decided I was going to seek another church because obviously this church wasn't home. So I decided I would give it one more try and I had been praying for days about this and I was specific with God and let me tell you God showed me. It's not on my time it's on His time and His timing is perfect (Lamentations 3:25-26-The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks him; It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord). Everything that was spoken today was an answer to all my questions, all my "why Lord" was spoken to me loud and clear, there was no doubt, no disillusions, no and no discouragement. I wept so much but it was a weeping that came from my soul I just sat there and the tears just came trickling down like a waterfall, I couldn't even make a sound, there was numbness of pain and just tears, my soul was the one grieving. Once we were done and we said the sinner's prayer, we were asked to fill out the same card I had been filling out and leave it at the end of the pews, I took mine since I was going to sign up for a class. Wouldn't you know God not only sent one but He sent 3 people to make sure I was going to get plugged in to a life group and fellowship. This my dear friends is a perfect example of how God leaves the 99 to go after the 1 (Matthew 18:12- 14 -What do you think; If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish) I was that one sheep that God chased.....AMEN this is His Love, this is Him telling me it's going to be okay, this is Him saying I am with you at all times, this is Him saying I am not going to leave you, this is Him saying I haven't forgotten you..
Lord God I pray the person or people reading this will be blessed and Glorify you Lord. That they would realize you haven't forgotten them, you are never late, you are always on time. To keep their Faith, Your love is so amazing my God I pray for an increase in their Faith, Health, Love, Finances, whatever the need is Lord, In Jesus Name, but most of all Lord I pray for an increase in their hunger to know you more Lord to want to have an intimate relationship with you ALMIGHTY GOD, they would learn to meditate on your word day and night, this goes for me as well Lord, that we would be Men and Women after your own heart. In Jesus Mighty Name AMEN!!!!

Friday, March 25, 2016


Good evening I am exhausted, just got in and there is much to say but just really tired today. Tomorrow I will post my day today and tomorrow so I hope you are in a mood to read. LOL So much to say.
God Bless and remember continue seeking God.

Thursday, March 24, 2016


So I need some real motivation, I really want to start working out again. I really miss working out but doing nothing seems more appealing (at least that is what my daughter says) LOL LOL. We have talked on the phone for about one hour you would think we would use that time to work out .....right? NOOOOO instead we just spoke about it.....we are half way there LOL LOL.
No, but seriously I know I have to get back on the train but, it has been so difficult. Can anyone relate?
On a different note I am motivated to draw nearer to God, I actually took off tomorrow so I can just spend time in His presence....I am so excited.  My soul thirst for the Lord, I am also looking for a church here in Florida, I have a home church in Jersey but now that I moved to Florida I need a home church here. If there are any Floridians out there reading this I live near Fort Lauderdale. 
God is awesome......remember that everyday you wake up is a new day to Praise Him. 
Today I am keeping it short but sweet ok. Tomorrow is another day.........have an amazing evening, and don't forget to leave a comment if you have any suggestions, questions, prayer request etc.....we need to lift up and encourage one another. 

Psalm 42:1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. (NIV)
1 Thessalonians 5;11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. (NIV)
Hebrews 10:25 Not forsaking our meeting together (as believers for worship and instruction), as is the habit of some, but encourage one another, and all the more (faithfully) as you see the day (of Christ's return) approaching.(AMP)

Good night and be blessed.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016


I am sitting here wondering what to write, because I am so happy right now, I woke up this morning and I can't even explain the joy I feel. It's like I know everything is going to be okay. I know God is with me there is no more doubt. I believe it's because I shared my journey with you. It's true what they say when you confess, when you bring it all to the light you become free, you have peace.
My friend seek God in this time of pain, joy does come in the morning, learn from your hurt let it be a testimony to someone that might just need some hope.
People think because we are Christians we are perfect we don't feel anything and we are quick to judge others. It's good for the world to see that we struggle also, that we feel pain that sometimes we just act like a hot mess, what we do different is we seek God but sometimes we don't, like I said yesterday sometimes we just run.
Yes, God gets angry at us because he knows His plan is so perfect and we just can't see it, we are so engulfed in our pain that we just turn away, but isn't it awesome that God doesn't stay angry at us just like a true parent that He is. God's Grace, His Mercy, His Compassion, His Love is so much more than His anger. If you are a parent you could relate, when your kid does something don't you get upset but it doesn't last long, as I was typing this I could hear my grand-kids in my head always saying SORRY and my daughter says to them 'I KNOW, SORRY, YOU ARE ALWAYS SORRY, BUT THEN YOU DO IT AGAIN" but then she just looks at them and smiles........isn't that what we do, to God,  we are always sorry and then we do it again but God takes one look at us and smiles and he keeps forgiving us. How awesome is that.
Seek joy, share your journey with someone, you never know someone might really need to hear it. Walk in forgiveness, knowing you have God's Mercy, His Grace and His Love.
Joy comes in the morning.....remember that.

Psalm 30:5 - For His anger endureth but a moment, and His favor is life; weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. 
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 
Romans 3: 23 For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
Psalm 30:2 Lord my God, I called to you and you healed me. 
Psalm 100:1 Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth.
Habakkuk 3:18 Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Psalm 28:7 The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and He helps me. My heart leaps for joy and with my song I praise Him 
Hebrew 4:16 Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Numbers 6:24-26 "The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you Peace...................In Jesus Mighty Name.....AMEN

Tuesday, March 22, 2016


I never thought I would find myself here....DIVORCED!!! = DIVIDED by FORCE.
Well, either which way I never thought it would be me, we were HAPPY, we were IN LOVE, we were INDESTRUCTIBLE, nothing could break us apart or so I thought. Here I am a year later still trying to pick up the pieces of my failed marriage. I was told so many things, Hold on to God, He has a plan, it is all going to work out for His Honor and Glory, Don't Loose Faith.....not what I wanted to hear at that moment.
Didn't they know that my world was just destroyed, my world was infiltrated by the enemy? I didn't think anyone really understood what was happening, how I felt, how I just wanted to DIE.....I even asked God to just KILL me, I didn't want to live anymore, but guess what He didn't listen.

When we are young we always dream about our Knight in shinning armor, our Prince Charming or for you guys your Princess, your Queen and then we grow up and we meet "THE ONE" you know the one that makes you smile even if they aren't around, or just the mere thought of them makes your heart skip a beat, you can't imagine life without that person, so you get married, you think to yourself well this is it, for better or for worse till death, you even promise each other that no matter what the word "DIVORCE" is never to be mentioned that word is just as bad as cursing. You are partners for life, there is nothing that could separate you two because your love is so strong. Then it happens you get comfortable, you take each other for granted, you forgot what it was that made you smile. Then you or your spouse start looking in another direction and one of you go astray seeking happiness elsewhere. Then the promise is broken, DIVORCE creeps in, your happily ever after has just become a nightmare.
You ask yourself What happened, where did we go wrong? You start to blame everyone even God. You ask God why did you allow this to happen, why did you bring this person into my life? God you  know all things so you knew this was going to happen. All the while you don't hear God when He tries to tell you, I LOVE YOU, YOU NEVER ASKED FOR MY HELP, YOU CHOSE FREE WILL OVER ME, YOU DIDN'T TRUST ME TO BRING YOU THROUGH THIS, YOU LOST FAITH, IT WILL ALL WORK OUT, I AM HERE FOR YOU, I AM HURTING WITH YOU, I AM YOUR HEALER......until finally one day you stop screaming and you sit silently and then you hear a whisper, you can't make out the words so you strain to hear and all of a sudden the voice is clear and you hear God, but now you have shame because you were so mad you made a mess of things (I left my home, my children, my grandchildren, my friends, I just left everything and everyone behind, I just wanted to run).
So you hear Him but you feel that you are beyond help, Here we go again right? Well, No!!! I am here to tell you that even in your mess God loves you, there is nothing you could do to make Him stop loving you. He is your healer and I know it's hard because you are hurting, I know that pain and yes you feel like just giving up but don't, I am learning to turn to God in every circumstance, it's not easy and I have a lot to learn, I have good days and I have bad days, but most of all God has given me PEACE, He is loving me beyond my pain, beyond my guilt and beyond my shame.
I know He is working in me pulling out all the anger, hurt, bitterness, and healing the brokenness. One day at a time that is all I can say, I know in my mind I am forgiven, I just have to believe it in my heart.
My marriage failed but that doesn't make me a failure, I know we didn't seek God wholeheartedly, we chose to just give up, we relied on our own strength instead of God's strength, we didn't stop to listen, we didn't pray separately and together. We entertained the enemy, but that doesn't make us bad people. I know I have learned a lot on this journey and I know it's only the beginning there is a lot more healing and breaking that needs to be done. This will make me stronger and wiser. I am not perfect and I know now God doesn't expect me to be, all He wants is my obedience, for me to love and trust Him fully. I am not there completely but Praise God I getting there.
So yes, God will be Glorified not matter what, and I know with every tear I cry He cries along with me. I am not alone.
Today I wear a wedding band as a promise to God that I am His completely and the day I take it off it's because the man that God has chosen for me will replace it.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Psalm 125:1 Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.
2 Kings 17:14 But they would not listen and were as stiff-necked as their ancestors, who did not trust in the Lord their God.
Psalm 25:1 In you, Lord my God, I put my trust.
Psalm 84:12 Lord Almighty, blessed is the one who trusts in you.
I pray you have been blessed by my journey which is not over......THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING.